Cupid's Confessions!!

When the clock ticks at nine and all along the rhymes of time,

All I ever wonder is, How I could be fine, without something that is mine!

I had woken up the next day, Not too ecstatic or happy, neither dull and sad. I was satisfied, satisfied of his presence in my world that nothing else mattered. What he said, why he said, when he said and all. Like the minute a mother sees he new born's smile she forgets her own pain. That way, Exactly the same way.

Ned was off to his college for work, I was staying back, since a year had been left off to wrap up my course, I wanted to put the best of whatever I could. 'Profession shouldn't pay the price for relation', I thought. 

Looking at my phone, I could see Sarah's umpteen calls! 'Impatience, Nice' I thought, remembering how much time she took for confessing about her relationship to me. Nevertheless, I was the one with a big mouth and I saw no point in hiding things, especially to her. And I was pretty much sure, Ned wouldn't mind it either!

Leaving quick texts to a few professional contacts, promising to meet em soon, I headed on to call Sarah. 'Enough she must be dying to listen', I thought. But the truth? I was dying to say!!!

Even before the first ring could be over, she had picked it up!

"Ann, how dare you!" she yelled.
I was supressing a sinister smile. I was waiting for this day since like forever!!
"What did I do now?!" I asked her in an innocent tone.
"How dare you ask me such a question, miss!"
I finally gave up. "So tell me, what's up?!"

She had lost her temper- "I should tell you uh? You and your Mr.Prince charming vanished off in the car. Atleast he had the nerve to leave a text saying that it was his best day. You literally vanished into mid air lady!!"
I grabbed my cup of coffee and sat down. "Not vanished actually. I had to travel back and I overslept due to the same."
"Overslept? Don't people lose sleep when they fall in love?" Sarah teased.
"May be, they do. you should be knowing these! After all you are better experienced!"
"Ha ha, very funny! Out with it now!"
I leaned back and said her in detail about everything. The drive, the mild tears, the marble place, the small twirl, the beautiful gift- Everything! Including the dream too!
Sarah fell silent. "Hey you are listening right?" I popped up.
"Yeah" Came her reply. "You know what?"
I sat up, 'Now what?!' I thought pausing for her to go on.
"I always thought Richard was the most romantic person of all, Ned seems to have left him way behind today!"
I literally threw back and laughed, "Oh, please! I know how much Richard has done.. Besides.."
I fell silent. Sarah asked "What's bothering you now?"
I took a small breath, " I donot  know Sar, Maybe I am just being paranoid. Things seem totally fake. I just dont know. I mean Ned was the hottest guy around. Me? I was poles apart from him. Things don't seem to add up. And I am scared of commitment. And moreover, it is long distance one too.."
Sarah cut in "Is it just my feeling or are you being extra stupid today?!"
"May be you are right, but may be..."
Sarah yelled.. "Enough Ann, Think positive. That is all. Take care. Bye!"

As she hung up, I was lost in a world of thoughts.
Or probably I did take a nap. Yesterday seemed to be forever.
The phone had been ringing, suddenly I jolted and woke up.
It was him.
I picked it. "You din't go for flying today?"
Ned's husky voice at the other end sent random ripples all through me. "Hi baby! and no."
"Oh" I said to him.
"And madam, that is how you speak to your boyfriend?!"
I was stupid! Or Sarah was right!
"I apologize.. I umm.. err... was sleeping!"
"Did I catch you day dreaming madam?"
I blushed to death.
"Is that a crime?"
Ned laughed, "yes, especially when I am dying to speak to you!"

"Well, I prefer sleeping" I said.
"Don't taunt and torture me so, lady! Spare! After the dance and the drive, only I know how difficult it was for me to leave you alone. If I had an option, I wouldn't even let you go out of my arms.."
"Ah the words are soothing and romantic... But we have so much to do in life! My passion, yours, everything matters Ned."
Probably he was annoyed, but I had to tell him all these. the earlier, the better.
To my utter surprise he said, "I will not come in between you and your dreams, Ann"
I jolted, "What?"
"I mean it, you are right Ann. You are free to do things you want, I love you, I don't wana own you. You are free to go. I trust you more than what I trust myself. You follow your heart. I will be more than happy to you succeed."

'But I don't trust you. I feel insecure seeing you speak to someone else. His friends. My friends- to none this would seem right! I knew it. We are damn different.' were the words I wanted to tell him. "Thank you Ned. You have lessened the burden of my heart!" I said.
"I thought it would've vanished Ann", he frowned, "Lessened?"

I was very earnest at that moment, "I miss you. I really don't believe I am saying so to someone. But I do. Yet lets strive hard today, and spend eternity in bliss."
"You have a point madam. Did I tell you I love that stable head of yours too? Apart from the pure heart?!"
I played along, "You never did! Did I tell you I like the attitude of yours and the way yours eyes twinkle?"
"Now, now who knew Ms. Anny Drew would have some other feeling than hatred towards me?"
"Hatred? When did I hate you?" I mocked.
"Oh, please, every Tom-Dick and Harry knew that story."
Both of us laughed out loud. Things seemed pretty obvious, only love was inevitable!! We were blind never to see.

"Okay, running late for my basket ball sessions! I'll catch up soon. Bye baby! Take care!" Ned blew a kiss on phone and rushed off to respond to the wails of his teammates.
"Bye" I mouthed.
'This was what I longed for! Why am I not ecstatic!' I thought..

Love is Not Blind,

It sees But Cares Not To Mind!

I shrugged and put my hands in my pockets and punched him in the ribs.. "What was the point making me wait so long?" I asked him.. 
Ned winked and asked.. "Well, was it worth it..?"
"Worth?"... my eyes popped up.. "I feel like flying!!" I said jumping here and there.. I clasped my hand and twirled around myself ... "I am ecstatic.. " I said..
He picked me up and threw me in mid air... At the end of it.. I fell in his arms.. 
He brushed the hair off my face, and the tear of my eyes.. 
And then let me go.. I silently traversed the white path.. With him protectively walking behind me.. 
"Just One second.." he said and motioned me to be quiet and be still...
He went over and got me a gift... And asked me to open it..
In my mind, I was happy that it wasn't a flower, I hated it... It wasn't a ring, I felt it was too early for that...
It was a gift... Beautifully wrapped in shiny blue wrapper.. Having a bright white ribbon..
As I opened it, I could see his eyes excitedly anxious to note what my reaction was.. 
As I unwrapped it I found the gift... Candles.. A Pair Of wine glass candles.. In deep white and blue color... Just like the wrapper color...
"Well..." Ned questioned.. "I love it... Its beautiful.." Saying this I rested my head on his shoulder.. It rightly lay on his heart.. One arm of his was holding me.. The other hand was on the gift..
I shrugged and let him go.. "I can't tell you how many days I have been waiting for this day.." 
I walked ahead and spoke in a clear voice..
"Its just not about love, or marrying you or lust Ned... It was about the connection I had with you.. The way I could communicate to you.. You read my face.. You know how I would be, even before I said.. What I could do.. How I wanted to be.." I moved on from here and there.. Finally looking at him I said.. "I wanted to live a life with you... Every moment of it.. The decisions I make Right or Wrong, I want to face it with you.. Because I knew, it was going to be worth it.. "


Ned was listening to me patiently.. "So.." he started.. "It's just not about my charm and me.."
I laughed.. "No, I'm sorry!" 
We had reached the car.. "So the day ends here.."
I quickly added.. "Life begins from now .. The ending marks a very grand beginning..!"
Ned smiled.. "Indeed.. I am looking forward for it.."
I added.. "Me too..."
 He left me back at home and then went ahead to his..


I went over to my room and cried.. It was beautiful..
I had got what I wanted.. After long I danced.. Letting go of all emotions fear and thoughts.. 
'Nothing could go wrong now..' I thought.. And slept at the night... 


The dream had been perfect... We were hosting a party.. A white fountain, a cute lawn.. Both the families were shining in the limelight.. Seemed the dazzling had been the result of our love.. ♥ 
He was holding me proudly.. We had danced.. So many people loved to see us together... That appealed a lot to me..


I woke up rubbing my eyes.. The dream seemed too good to be true..
Packing off all the things, I went ahead for my travel...
Love... Who knows what next.. 

  Its Best Said, When It Is Said From Heart,
It says What you Thought, You Felt And What Not?! 

"Just what do you mean by saying that??" Ned was asking me..

Even in such a blizzard situation, I couldn't help, but admire the gaze of his eyes..

I got up very calm and composed.. "I said, Just leave me.." 

"And what do you think of yourself..?" 

I drew a deep breath.. "I said leave me.. I know you too well.. I know what you've been trying all along.. You have no idea what sort of a trouble you are in.."

"Well," He said smiling, "Whatever it is you would forgive me.." He came close, I moved away..

Facing the party I said.. "Its just not done.. Its not always about us.. You have no idea what you've done to Rach.."

Ned came in front.. "Rachel.. ??" He did not understand what I meant to say..

"Ned Nickerson.. Rachel loves you..."

Ned threw back laughing.. "For God's sake Ann there is a limit for possessiveness.. She never did and also never will love me... She is my friend.. And she should be knowing by now that you love me..."

I challenged.. "You didn't tell her that we two are together right? Welll, neither did I.. "

I turned back faced him and said.. "So how does that sound?" 

Ned cupped my face in the moonlight.. "I love you.. More than any one else.."

I couldn't hold back more.. Tears glittered in my eyes... " I do too.."

I blushed let go off him and ran into the party.. And told it to Sarah..

She lifted me off the ground.. Even Richard understood, and went over to Ned for a manly handshake..

But I had a few girly scores to settle.. I knew.. I pouted my plan to Sarah and Richard.. I took Sarah by my hand and winked at Ned..

Both of us were just popping around and then.. We went to Rachel.. "So Rachel..."

"Yo girls, how have you been..?"

"Good".. Sarah said.. "Very good.." I pouted..

Rachel had drunk a bit.. It was obvious the way she was swinging.. "Where is my cutie-pie honey Ned..?" 

I gritted my teeth.. 'cutie-pie, my ****' I thought.. 

"Well, It was awesome, the way you twirled with him.." Sarah lied..

I couldn't even lie saying such a thing.. It didnot make a difference, since the music had been loud enough for her to ignore my silence...

Rach went on.. "Ya, ours is meant to be.. Our love is full of glee.. I would do anything to make him mine you know Sarah.. Just anything.. I Loveeeeeee Him.."

Ned came from behind.. Rach threw herself upon him, only sorrow thing was that she fell in my arms.. 

"Ann.. Move.." Rach grumbled...

"No you listen, you move.. You are in the middle.."

Ned hated me more than anything when I meddled into girly girlish fights, and in fact I hated it myself..

I just began to move.. Ned stole up from behind and lifted me off the ground.. I squealed.. 

"I have been giving you a hard time.." Ned apologised softly.. 

We had attracted a lot of attention from the crowd.. I could see a lot of people looking at us open mouthed.. 
The minute he left me off to touch the ground.. We were at the parking lot....


I had already waved a good bye to the whole crowd, I knew I wouldn't see them back again for a while..
"Can you come with me..??" Ned questioned..
"Yup " I said.. And struggled not to make any eye contact, I would blush..
After making sure that I was comfortable, he sat inside the car... "This is going to be fun.."
I smiled.. My favorite song was on the music system.. I looked outside to see the lights dimming and dipping.. To me they looked perfect in the night..
"Admiring the glow in the dark, lady?" he questioned after a prolonged silence..
I looked at him... I couldn't believe that I actually go my guy.. He was the one that I had dreamed when I thought of crush.. He was perfect.. He had come into my life.. And he was going to be there everyday from now on.. He would love me know matter what I did...
I was slowly realizing how significant the day had been and how much I had got in the particular day..
A tear flowed down my cheek..
"Why now..??" he frowned and brushed it off..
"Don't baby sit me Ned.." I laughed.. "Just drive.."
He pulled the car.. "What ??"
I sat stiff... "Can't believe this is happening to me..!!"
Ned got startled.."Why... I thought you expected it earlier.."
I looked at him and said.. "I expected.. But didn't realize the worth of love.."
"Uhh.. Romantic words.." Ned smirked..
I laughed.. "Nothing.. Just nothing.. Drive on..."
We had gone long.. Until I just saw two big lights and an arch full of grasses.. To me at the first look, nothing else could be seen...
I jumped out of the car laughing.. You wanted me to see this arch.. 
"Well, what do you think..?" He had come quite close to me.. I shivered..
I looked as I winked my eyelids, suddenly lights flashed and I saw.. A white pathway.. Full of marble..
I was amazed..
"Come.." He said gripping my hands and entangling my fingers.. It was safe because it was with him.. 
To me it was the most beautiful thing that I had ever seen.. I was slowly trying to look around, but it was so dark that I couldn't see a thing..
Then I saw a small bench.. To call it just a bench would be again a disgrace, because it was in white marble, looked as if it was shining solely under the reflection of the moon..
He had left me alone.. The marble was cold... Everything was silent, no one was around..
Millions of questions were running in my mind.. As to why and what was going to happen.. But I was too happy to think..
In a while he came behind and said.. " Just close you eyes.."
The next minute he was down on one knee.. My hand was between both of his.. It was safe.. I knew I was that tightly safe with him..


"Miss.Anny Drew.. You Are the one and only girl who has always been the definition of perfection in my life.. You are beautiful in every move and you connect with me.. I have always longed for your affection.. I have hurt you, played with you, toyed you, fought with you- because you are mine.." he chuckled softly and whispered "and also frankly I have missed you.."
I swore, I knew My heart skipped a beat...
And then slowly he rose up.. And cupped my face in between his hands..
"But most of all ... I love you.. For Now and Forever..."
Silence seemed the only sound except for his heartbeat, as I hugged him for the first time in the heights of affection and care.....